Perfect eyesight 6/6.. mentally or physically

It's 1 week to 3months after my lasik.

Vision is recorded as perfect 6/6 by the optometrists.
Indeed clearer vision, having needing vison aids for almost more than 20 years.

It also bring about a clearer what is Family all about.
A clearer view of a doting BIASED woman and a young unemployed student irresponsible brother.

My rantings utmost feelings reveals....

The former - pretends to be all nice and good to you with the ever intention so as cheat whatever she can out of you,
stressing that she tried to be fair but nv done so. YES.. fair. I have to do the housework, denied access to the storeroom /aircon,
insisted i should pay for the new sofa just because the latter is still in school and doesn't hold a job, demand to live up to her expectations,
blamed the dog for all the smell.. LIKE WTF.. read this I'm surprised that my DOG CAN CLIMBED UP THE FUCKING TOILET BOWL & PEE IN THE HOLE BUT HASN"T LEARNT TO FLUSH..
even i am rushing late for work, hang ard like the the grimreaper to make sure i clean up otherwise her black magic will start to work..
must do her favours but when u request a favour..just dream on..
fix microwave cos her lovable darling wants to bake stuff to impress a cunt hole. most expensive treat $26 half a duck shared by 3..
returned the $ owed, but claimed did not rcvd. NOw i know why she refuse IB transfer! enough said.. my blood will only boils further!

The Latter - clean up only when gf needs to come for a visit. what is she? queen of sg? rich man's brat?
IS this what being part of the family is about.. only clean up, clear things when there is a need to impress a CB.. CCB.
only clean own's room, smart move. be smarter, climb up the gutter to your room. do not use the front door.Leave by the same way.
Pee and shit out of the window, do not utilise the toilet.
shower- you better pray it rains everyday.
Internet fee - you have out it in a nice way, share. end up. i pay $40 & you pay $20 and your usage is higher than mine.When the router breaks down in May, your promise - "settle when i come back".
Aug-came back.pretend problem nv occurs. YOU get to use all the time, all day while i am at work. When i need to use for a few hours at night and your face is equivalent starts smelling like a racoon's fart.
Sep- i ask when can you settle the prob.. answer: " when i got the money" end of sentence. 2 months. fucking tolerate bcos you said you need to do your school work.
"when you get the money" is the day when i meet my maker.
Oct- come to me & said share the router which cost at the most $120 quoting bcos he paid for the modem. LIKE SINCE WHEN YOU PASS ME THE $$, MODEM BROKE DOWN A FEW WEEKS b4 YOU ARE FARKKING DUE TO GO USA..KNOWING U NEED $$, I ASK YOU RETURN WHEN U R BACK . remind you that you did not pay me the $, face worse that a scorpion's bite.
NOv- walk pass and you are watching anime. Ur mountain said " need to relaxed ma" , bravo, staring at the screen for work is stress, staring at the screen watch anime is relaxation. Simple.. treat your work as anime. You are relaxing all the time.
2 weeks to dec - got super pissed as totally cannot get online all the damn times, ask you again, you say dun know. good i make the decision, when you complete your studies. answer: early dec.
my reply : I dun want to share with you anymore starting from dec.
Your mountain : "let him use lah, he doesn't have the money,not working"
My answer : I gave him time long enough to work out the resolution to the problem, all he can say is "wait till i got the money".
Your mountain : He did not get to work in USA, survived on his savings.
My reply : from Aug to Nov is 4 months, if he save over the 4 months, end of nov, he could have gotten a new router.
letting you for free is not a problem, what pissed me off is YOUR FARKING IRRESPONSIBILTY to hold things off like meaning TML NV COMES and only when by force you think of solutions
Uncle SAID : " he will only graduate in mid 2009
My thought : so telling me DECEMBER IS JUST PURELY A LIE TO ME & i am not giving in.
the 1st day of dec - Singnet Mio modem in room, even if promotion bundle, need not pay a single cent up front, monthly subcriptions. yes you can afford. yet a router, cant.MIND You.. u did not pay me for the nov usage.
IF U DON"T REMEMBER, I'm reminding you now, when you first started to use, it was almost to the end of the month, you offered to pay first, BUT i told you to pay at the end of the next month which means after you finished using for the month, den you need to pay. AS YEARS passed, you been dragging payment from month-end to beginning of next month. ALL these while I kept mumb.
Your NO $$ =
1) able to buy ingredients to bake a cake
2) able to buy a PHILLIP blender
3) spend $$ on flowers on valentines day

Just bcos i took some strawberries meant for your stupid gf, you gave me the zbye look. Thanks. This is what i got from my blood-related brother. to begin with i'm suspecting we are not even related in any way.

what have you done ard in the house. O you did. you got a light bulb for the toilet. YES that is bcos your gf is visiting tml. Why didn't you get a toilet seat for the bathroom too?

There are more.. all these are neverending.

I seen what i have as my family. Given the choice, i choose to give up my identity.

Dear whoeva has the power to change my fate.

1) MAKE THEM DIE; or
2) kill me, my soul and my existence.

It's better with option 2. Let them be happy, let them be guilt-free, let them have what they want at the expenses of my ceasing-existence.
What am i? Nothing. Just an orphan gal left behind by Daddy.
I am trying to make my ends meet but it's not working.

My existence isn't worth a thing. Don't let me wake up again.
Please read my this will at my funeral.
Clear & loud. I have kept to myself all these while cos there are more stuff to trouble. It's time they come out.