Revision on the aspects of life...- Dreams...

There has been a lot on my mind lately as well as several matters weighing on me... came across many visuals...i can't really say they are visuals... but.. seeing those stuffs.. really made me put on my thinking cap...

Life revolves around work.. gym.. weigh loss stuffs... home.. the usual stuffs.. once home.. i would face my comp.. as usual.. check on Kellie.. ensuring she not in her teary moods.. I can fully understand how she feels..the only difference that's she's in London.. while I'm in Singapore..

Ironically, the feeling is quite there.. Even I have friends around me, relatives & close friends... the platform to stand & stay on, called reliability, it's presence is simply missing.. not reliability in the sense of business.. trust.. I think is more like.. the feeling of you know that when you need a shoulder to cry on.. there is someone you can turn to.. someone for you to hug when you needed one.. someone whom you can easily tell your fears.. sadness..weeping sorrows.. I realised.. i do not seems to be able to find any..even though they are around me..

They are so close.. yet.. too far away to be reached out to..

When was the last time i hug someone? months ago.. it was Sunand.. but the hug was a restrained one.. as well as a goodbye (Long time friend... whose leaving for Aussie & hard to meet up as well!!!) .

Why restrained.. I can't answer that.. hugging someone even not very close wasn't hard for me many years ago... But it seemed so hard now.. even if FT had asked for a friendly hug on a few occasions.. i flatly refuse.. it's not that i suspect he's not up to any good..

With him around me, i feel somewhat safe.. not that I have something for him.. it's just that the trust in him i can't find it on any other guys....that I know even if I lay next to him nude, nothing would happened & I could still slumber safely without any worries...Maybe it's becos he's GAY..LOL

A weird feeling washed up to me this morning... really weird..the feeling of missing Ft & wanting to Hug him woke me up.. This came up to me very clearly cut... the kind of hug is like I wanted to flung my arms over his shoulders & cling on tightly... & cry.. I do not know what came over me.. the feeling is just there...

Maybe I just had too much weird dreams recently..a couple too many....

Funny part is in all my dreams... i was slim.. Prophecies??

the first was on a Thursday or Wednesday i suppose..
I dreamt was engaged to this new guy(some local celebrity..not even acquaintance) i like recently.. & before me he had this really fabulous.. hot..model gf..whom he dumped to marry me..WOW RIGHT.. far-fetched dreams are like this.. that's why they are called dreams.... Hahaaaaa

I was the kinda jittery bride in the dream cos i have been hearing from many of our friends they are still somewhat together.. just that no strings attached.. it's just occasional companions.. & He still hangs out pretty much over her place overnight despite the fact we are getting married..VERY SOON in the dream..lol ..

I was like a teary fiancée whose totally lacked of self-confidence that could keep her man... I drove a sport car to meet him to have a talk & have half the mind to call off the engagement.. at the same time hopefully he would do something drastic to made me change my mind...Think he took over the wheel & as he was driving..the conversation goes

Me (teary..& choked emtions betrayed by my voice) : Why did you break up with her to be with me?
Silence...................
Him : Why don't you asked me why did i asked to marry you........

& THEN I WAS WOKE UP BY THE ALARM CLOCK!!!!! ( I think...LOL)

GAWD!!!!! Orgasm right!!! when the important part is coming to.. I was forced to awake...SIGHZZZ
This dream has not been continued since then.. LOL

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This Morning's was even weird.... I dreamt that 3 of my friends concurrently were trying to win a bet on me..however, i can recall only 1 of the incdent now..

3rd Dream :-
A long time brother cum friend( i remember whose he)...suddenly asked me out.. & he rides a bike.. (not so him... he was never into bike at all)
But somehow or rather he asked me out on a date... to stroll along Vivocity... funny dream...stroll at the park facing sentosa...

Another weird part is that pillion is usually sitting behind the rider... He told me to sit at the front while he sits behind me controlling the bike.. as we travel... weird.. it's like as if we were so close to a certain proximity

then somehow or rather he was trying to persuade me to go to this building just next to Vivo...the one that has a rotating tower ...but in the dream.. that place is a HOTEL! he was like half dragging me to it & i seem reluctant to advance towards it & mention i left my purse at his vehicle..& quickly u-turned...

He caught up with me & walked together.

As we walked out... he apologised.. He confessed that he had a bet with 2 of our friends that he was able to bed me..

This horrible dream really strikes me awake!!!! scary...

The other 2 i can't recall... & I'm worried.. cos they said if you dun remember your dreams details but you know you dreamt of it.. it would happened.. which means the other 2 might really happened!!!


Weird Dreams right....SIGHZZzzzz..

The Night's damned hot.. going off for a shower..

There are still so much more to blog abt...

Friendship's accountability......

This is weighing too much in my mind & causing my slumber to be postpone till I get it off my chest.

I was trying by all means (ok.. all i had was my cellphone) to get to a close friend knowing the fact she is feeling kinda of down. Despite my numerous attempts & missed call, no response.. means no response.. It kinda of got me worrying on the silly things she might attempt.

Back home, she was OL, msg her..no response still..called her..& she told me she's not in the mood to talk..

This really set me wondering..WTF... Why am I getting this feeling that more & more of my friends are doing this to me.. first was FL, den JT..ok now her...(least of my expect)

Well, since you need none of my concern & my presence is totally redundant..okie,, this is really fine...I mean...fuck loh... I've my own share of woes & problems as well... when i am not in the mood to tok.. I simply tell them st8 " Sorry, not really in the mood to talk now" BUT NO..simply no response... this really irkes me & the feeling is definitely a no no... Since my concern & worry is uncalled for...I know where my stand is now.


Are all these due to the hectic working life? Maybe...but deep down in me, the voice's telling me not. It's just a close friend accountability towards another i guess.. Once.. someone.. i couldn't recall who it was.. quoted to me friends aren't forever, family is..

To me.. now.. both aren't forever, no such quotes "go through thick & thin.." , blood is thicker than water, no.. not to me.. as far as i can see. Human by nature is selfish, care only for their own welfare..& disregarding whether that cross their paths that could jolly have an impact on the life of others. There are countless live samples ard me..

Really loss for words...
Or maybe its me that's getting older..
maybe i am slumping into depression..
But for sure, this wasn't a good thing to end a day & start anew..
The aftermath is terribly solitary...

Customer Service not up to standard

I was pretty excited when i rcvd the mailer telling me i can change my Pin for my Citibank credit acct.

Therefore upon & after loggin on, I was perpetually peeved by the unprofessionalas per my standard and totally user-unfriendly internet banking they have.

Wasted abt 30mins trying to get what i need to do, but to NO AVAIL.. really.. WTH!!!!

Therefore i drafted a long complaint! no.. i meant feedback!

What is this One-Time Pin all about? I've rcvd instructions from your mailer I am able to login via citibank.com.sg to change the Pin. BUT all I've been thrown back at my face that i need to have this pin in order to access.

Now, isn't this an irony? The website is totally unfriendly, am not able to locate any explanation/info on One-Time Pin and was prompted to call 63382228 w/o any indication that it's only available during office hours & find myself being routed from one ring tone to repetitive voice greetings & long waiting time.

W/O much of a choice i've to call up 62255225 instead, once again long waiting time, ringing goes on & on.

Finally, a lady CSO by the name of Emerad responsed. She was pretty helpful but needs improvement. She had kindly explain & help to update the details & advise 5 working days to rcvd the pin via my Cellphone.(AGAIN, this wasn't advise when i submit the request for the pin via the website!)

I had asked her if in the case I did not rcvd any sms pertaining to this, what should I do.
Her reply was " you will definitely get the pin via sms in 5 working days time"
Again i stressed "what if I did not get it"
She adamantly replied " All our customers will definitely get it, you just need to make sure it's after 5 working days"

Now, wouldn't it be more appropriate if she could reply " No worries, you would definitely get it in 5 working days. If not, you can always refer back to me again. I would gladly check what could have gone wrong."

Being confident is good, but most customers would not think likewise.

I had to suggest to Emerad that if i could refer back to her if in the case I did not rcvd the pin in 5 working days time. Of course, this she gladly obliged.

As an ex-CSO, I do not think this is the right approach to assure a customer, especially after I had expressed my frustration on the long waiting time & improper/incorrect information from the start of the conversation.

At the end of the day, it's not apologies that turn a frustrated customer into a satisfied one but the right assurance being put forward to enable your customers to understand that their queries are being taken care of & not chucked aside.

P.S All the unnecessary waiting could be avoided if the website/mailer are equipped with the rightful & helpful information.

Cannot believe this is Citibank customer service standard..totally... ridiculous!

Today wasn't a fantastic day either, i gain back some of the weight that i have lost... my lunch wasn't lesser than what i planned.. took carb... took fats.. sighhzz... totally SHITTY!!!!!!!!

Signing off.. need my slumber..else i would have to cab to work again....

Good Night everyone