Friendship's accountability......

This is weighing too much in my mind & causing my slumber to be postpone till I get it off my chest.

I was trying by all means (ok.. all i had was my cellphone) to get to a close friend knowing the fact she is feeling kinda of down. Despite my numerous attempts & missed call, no response.. means no response.. It kinda of got me worrying on the silly things she might attempt.

Back home, she was OL, msg her..no response still..called her..& she told me she's not in the mood to talk..

This really set me wondering..WTF... Why am I getting this feeling that more & more of my friends are doing this to me.. first was FL, den JT..ok now her...(least of my expect)

Well, since you need none of my concern & my presence is totally redundant..okie,, this is really fine...I mean...fuck loh... I've my own share of woes & problems as well... when i am not in the mood to tok.. I simply tell them st8 " Sorry, not really in the mood to talk now" BUT NO..simply no response... this really irkes me & the feeling is definitely a no no... Since my concern & worry is uncalled for...I know where my stand is now.


Are all these due to the hectic working life? Maybe...but deep down in me, the voice's telling me not. It's just a close friend accountability towards another i guess.. Once.. someone.. i couldn't recall who it was.. quoted to me friends aren't forever, family is..

To me.. now.. both aren't forever, no such quotes "go through thick & thin.." , blood is thicker than water, no.. not to me.. as far as i can see. Human by nature is selfish, care only for their own welfare..& disregarding whether that cross their paths that could jolly have an impact on the life of others. There are countless live samples ard me..

Really loss for words...
Or maybe its me that's getting older..
maybe i am slumping into depression..
But for sure, this wasn't a good thing to end a day & start anew..
The aftermath is terribly solitary...