Guilt??

Every morning, the first issue that cringes me was my lateness... I nv failed to go back to sleep despite the fact i woke up as early as 6am... something inside me just told me " Hey you have 30 mins to laze.. you would be still in time for work... if the bus arrived just in time when you reached the bus stand

I really hate to wait for buses... spoilt for choices, i have the tendency to board the oncoming bus & catch the buses that can send me to work some bad habit i picked up during school days.. i was using the student pass!!.. no matter how many service i switched.. it wouldn't charge more or less...

Right now, 2.02am, WHAT DA HELL!!! , I'm still awake... oki.. a min pass.. it's 2.03am... Welcome to the World...where time is always RUNNING~~!!! tsk tsk.. Just how am i going to reconstruct my life... I need some discipline...real discipline...

There used to be this someone...who had the ability to make me go to bed b4 12am... constantly be my alarm clock for the morning..surprisingly.. nv failed to wake me up..or more like without going back to sleep...
Recently tried testing if he remember our past... subtlety..he avoided the topic...**shrugzz**.. I guess...I've really lost him...

Now, i have learnt to control my temper..some colleagues commented that i am bubbly & jovial... Have i really changed? or it's just my low-esteem & ego in the past that caused us to turn strangers? This.. i will nv be able to find out....