the new week will be better.....

Day in day out ..same routines .. all over & done with...
Is my life gonna be like this for the next 10 years?
shudderrrrrr

As a matter of fact.. i can't remember wad i have done from MOnday to Friday.. oOo
Went KTV @ BIshan NTUC with me colleagues.. 7 of us.. cus i have a free room voucher...
I'm not going to fell for the free voucher trick again.. ended up each of us paid $20+..it's daylight robbery!! hell manzz..

Pictures of took of myself wasn't the better side of me except .. i looked soo FAT OOO kayyyy.. I'm fat.. & i have half my mind to go on a hard core diet like what i did 5 yrs ago..tremendous weight loss.. haha.. dun know if i still have that same energy to do so... Now i am telling myself that i should CUT AWAY.. yeah..CUT AWAY all the Carbs intake... beak into smaller meals.. just half filled balloon in me.. BUT FOOD.. i love to eat food.. love to gorge myself silly at times.. & let out a really *giggles*mindbooozingloudlyflabbergestering bletch... heehee.

NO.. i must constraint myself..restraint from carbs.. just proteins.. maybe just veg!

Something really unpleasant happened on sunday... that loserpieceofshittycuntholefullofworms SLUT went visiting at grans place for a reason, complains of me not letting her use the scv..complains of the mess Sushi made..complains every single thing..thinking i would give in to her like i used to..

FAT CHANCE!!!!!! u lousylowlifepieceofshitty SLUT!

I was pissed..forever pretending to be pathetic..forever going ard telling others i am unfilial... How to be filial when all she does was treat me like a leech.. how do you call someone family when all she cares is only abt herself.. her own welfare.. & only does good things to show off to others that she is someone good..

I am sick of her conniving ways.. i burst out to granny after she ask me during dinner why did i treat that fucking slut this way...

As usual, her complaints always consisted of what i have done to her, & subtly left out were the reasons behind for my actions

With my outburst emotions & vague details for the reason i did all those things.. My grans said "in those days when grandpa ill-treat her..she did not do the same like wad i did..." I looked at her..with disbelief...n retorted.."does mean grandpa ill-treat her..she has got the right to do the same to me..it's different now. & I'm not her."

HELLO~? she just JEALOUS that grandpa dotes me when he's very much alive..how dumb is She.. & she gets dumber as well.. in short.. i believed, she married daddy..just to escape harsh life with grandpa.. if she loves daddy.. she will not be ill-treating me like what she has been doing.. she will not have that dumb affair with that yeow gui seng,7 with his whole family coming over & creating a scene.. this still rang thru my mind very vividly.. i would nv forget those moments.. Aunt Juan asked me if i would ever forgive that slut/..

My answer is firmly said:-" NEVER..never in this lifetime..not even when she is dead!"

So much angst for this week.. i want a bettr new week..
Dear Guru Nanam, i want to be happy the whole of this week.. can you remove that bad lady from my life..once & for all. I'm worried i might just do something that i could not control if she were to incur my wrath again.. Thank you & signing off to bed.