PMS-iSh

I'm extremely mean gal today... What ever that was done by others, seen by me, irritates me & PISSED me off, were not spared from my lethally-venomous tongue... (okay lay.. i was only cursing silently to myself the whole day like a rattling fool!!!!!!! Cheesepie!!!)

YES.. I SPIT fiRe as well as breathes balls of fire... the whole day was definitely not going on smoothly.. In fact.. it's going o smoothly.. it's just my temper... I gets agitated by the slightest stuff ...

O gOsh.. my just thought i heard Sushi MEOWS... (Sushi's my pet dog..extremely naughty boy who pissed his Mummy off the moment she opens her room door)


Okayyyy.. back to me being agitated by the slightest stuff which usually i could keep my cool on...
I had these super craving for KFC... so lunch plans was to head to the nearest KFC @ braddell.. & GUESS WHAT.. i need to wait for 30minutes... WTH!!!!!!!!! Me & Ah Via left!!!!!

Went to the coffeeshop for Yong tau Hoooo ... HOO HOO.. GUESS WHAT..it's not opened... & I had the choice of only either Western Food or Duck RiCe...

Either Choice was Bad ChOiCe... It's not that the western isn't nice.. somehow or rather.. something was just NOT RIGHT!!!!.. you know.. NOT RIGHT.. & we do not know what is it...

The dUCk rice portion was PATHETIC.. taste of smelly DUCK.. it's just NOT UP TO MY FUCKING EXPECTATION... & not worth the price.. I think for future.. if i'm craving for Duckiee.. i will only go for the one nearer to my office....

I bought Chocolate Mint Ice Blended with pearl on the way back to office.. (something for me to slurp on... pamper myself silly..since i have NO ONE to pamper me silly.. but lots of ardiot friends who likes to slap me silly like i slap them silly..LOL..now.. r u getting confuse????)

I finished the whole of it by 2pm-ish.. GUESS WHAT HAPPENED... I THROW UP ALL MY LUNCH AFTER THAT.. super gross right?? BLAME IT ON THE DUCKIE RICE... I swear it upon my Weeny Cheen Cheen.. i will NV EVER had any duckie rice from that stall....ever ever eVER EVERRRRRRR again..FULL STOP...

Hell no.. I'm not anorexic... try having unsalted lunch for 2 months .. u know what i hellva means... This really makes me realise how UNHEALTHY economic food is..OILY..SALTY..SODIUM MANY MAY..MSG MANY MANY MANY MANYYYY...really like what the hell.. hawker food & coffeeshop food is a BIG BIG HINDRANCE to my diet plans.. NO WONDER my weight stagnant & refused to bulge lower.. knsai.....

Ok.. back in office.. I'm whining non stop.. abt being depressed..being pissed.. being MEAN.. when they ask me why.. i tell them cos i did not get to eat my KFC during lunchie!!!.. I was practically bawling like a BIG baby... arghh..

After throwing up, only than i realise.. in fact it's my guilt & pms @ work.. lastly for not gym-ing out for the past 2 days...GUILT.. all the guilty pangs.. the thoughts of me ballooning back to a Biggy Fatty Bomb Bomb Irks me... the sight of myself looking so fat kills me.. tearing me apart.. not with the words. but the silence of cold stare i get from the other side me.. I'm almost hearing myself saying.. "fat Fug.. why did u fucking binge like a water hippo.. ur waistline is laughing at you.. & cursing you ...as evil as hell you are.. knowing you are not suppose to binge on such items..you jolly well dig ur fat fingers into it.. can you jolly wake up your fucking idea can.. you will never GO BACK TO your slim days!!!!! & to think you had KFC just now for dinner.. SO WHAT if you shared a meal with Ah Via... You ate the fucking whole chunk of oil soaked cRiSpy skin!"

OK..TML I'm sticking back to my boiled broccoli & baked salmon & crunches b4 lunch...I'm going crazy.. not schizophrenic....this whole dieting & losing weight stuff is getting off-hand a bit.. I was happy though.. i measured.. 1.5inch off my chest..1.5inch off waist.. compared to my last attempt of 15kg shredded in a month's time.. this is much more healthier...

FT: who says my chest will not go SMALLER.. It just did okie.....

Like I said I'm in a super easily agitated as well as mean mode.. This would also contribute to my insecure nature as well.. especially upon seeing that one of your friend hasn't been answering your call as well as sms.. eventually answered some-elses call... This really hit my roof-top.

I DUN UNDERSTAND.. seriously.. why de FUCK would someone hold on to a cellphone but doesn't piCk up or answer your call neither REPLY your fucking SMS-es..

(It's my nature.. & culture to use the work "FUCK" alot...it's not a profanity to me... but just my culture..MINE..okay.. offended? too bad.. SUE the authors of the dictionaries...you can easily find the word FUCK meaning sexual intercourse.. dunche cheesepie-lly tell me its crude.. ur parents fuck to have you.. you are not borne from a stone..try telling ur parents they are crude.. be a monk/nun if you cannot withstand such crudeness.. that's the way the world is & the way I am)

Perpetually PISSED, i Sms this particular friend of mine..

"My purpose of calling you is to ask about FT..If you felt irritated about me calling you!.please state so & instead of keeping quiet about the whole damn silence..Aniwei rest assured as I will not ever call up again."

After I sending this.. i deleted his contacts from my cellphone... I do not see a need to keep someone's number in my phone book whom i call & nv get an answer.. the same goes for the others in my phone list. I'm not a phone directory.. contacts that are not necessarily to be in contact always finds their way out.. Simple as that.

Call me childish..this is me. I dun keep friends to grow thousand years Ginseng.. nor cobwebs...i dunche keep friends who back stabs me .. neither do i keep friends who ignores me most of the time.. aniwei the latter are not friends.. cos they nv in the first place see you as a friend.

I know this' a long post.. but i just want to release my pent-up anger..

An angry lady is no lady.. Just a bee-yOtCh who will gnarl your guts out & served in place of the goose liver paste on the appetizer palate to appease her anger.