the HuRt...pain..inflicted from the words of a friend

Have you wondered.. that hurtful words coming from a friend is worse than having it coming from a stranger....

The pain..hurt is really indescribable.. it happened today & tears came with it.. I had to quickly stifle a yawn to cover my tears... Totally useless I was.

I jolly well knew that the sarcasm wasn't charging at me, but the fact is I was the one who startled her off with that comment.

I know i shouldn't be feeling bad about it.. but I simply couldn't control my heart not to response to such hurtful comments.

This, I can see, are the retribution of the harsh & reckless young me. I was pretty much a straight-forward one, said stuff w/o thinking if it would hurt the feeling of another. I does reckless stuff w/o giving a damn whether someone else feels bad abt it,..

Now, at my age.. freak... it's nearing to the dreadful day again..., I'm getting it all back at myself..

Recently getting too emotional..crying at the littlest thing..
I think its time to get out there..reach out.. widen my social circle of friends.. but.sighzz.. I'm so worried of rejection.
Maybe getting too lonely..

But i'm truly a useless one.. Monday i'll be brand new again...sighz...

Where the hell has FT gone.. facebook facebook.. but nv msn.. must slap him silly when he's back... doodoo kookoobird him.

52 days to bangkok trip... can't wait... to getmy birthday cake from MBK... so pretty..




Planned to get the cake & bring it back to the hotel room to celebrate my birthday..
AhVia said she& Jasmin will throw in some "beetle chilli sauce" ...

dunche know what's that.. but I'm sure these two must be having something up their sleeves.. aniwei..it's still too early to fret..LOL

I got myself a ring today! finally.. it's stainless stain.. kinda of plain but with my name engraved on it.. It cost me $17.90 including the engraving.. & i'm regretting it now...

I've gotten it from Bluez in Queensway..my advise.. dun engrave your stuff there.. I had clearly checked for scratches b4 handing them back to engrave my name.. it got another scratch on the other side .. & the lady said it was there b4.. the scratched is obviously from the engraving knife..too neat & straight.

What pissed me off was the other sales person said that " I ya, you wear it after sometime sure have scratches 1 what"

I'm like thinking "so what.. I just bought it & i expect it to be in perfect condition.. 17 bucks for a fucking piece of stainless steel ain't cheap alright..whether will there be scratches after I've worn it for sometime is really non of your fucking problem.."

What a bitch & lousy sales personnels.. I shall bear in mind never to patronize that stall every again.


Okay..gtg.. having workout session with the fitness trainer @ 10am...
I must get back my shape by Dec b4 i fly Bangkok!
Nights!